The Race.

Er.. i think today i shall talk about me and my car.. haa.. sounds pretty
bored right. i think i am bored already. But recently i had a sudden change
in mindset.. about driving.. about speed i guess.

ok all my friends know.. i love to drive.. i really LOVE to drive.. i cant
live without hearing the exhaust.. touching the steering and stepping on the
pedals.

alright i will show u a video which influenced me since i was like 14 years old?

8 years ago.. wow.. enjoy.

The movie is call the Legend of Speed starring ekin. Ya.. the mv is below.





Next.. the last chase scene.





Ok.. in this video.. Ekin drove a Mitsubishi Evo 5.. and His rival an Subaru sti

I was like crazy over mitsubishi for like few years la.. until i got my mitsubishi
and crashed it like no father's business.. pics below..

After that car.. i am driving a honda now.. its a civic 2.0 and its damn cool.. pics below..







Right was talking about racing right.. i always thought horsepower is the key to
owning all the races.. like what chinese always say.. gong yu shan qi shi bi xian li qi qi
meaning if u wan to do well in whatever u do u must have the powerful tools.

AFter i drive my honda.. i always makan cars below the evo sti level.. haha.. makan
1 type r before la.. but i think that type r got some problem locating his gut.

Whats so fun about driving fast..

its not fun.. but i found myself.. go up to a speed that will shrink yr balls.
the blood flows faster.. the heart pumps faster.. and the changing of gears..
roaring of exhaust.. kicking of the clutch and screeching of the tires.. its
like.. shiokalingum (fanni thought mi this term)

but just the other day.. i was makan by a 1.6 Susuki Swift Sports.

i was driving back home the other day.. very tired.. need to get back soon.
drive a bit fast.. saw this swift.. tear him.. (on a straight road) and soon
this swift caught up.. in front was a bend i frequent.. usually 120km/hr isnt a
prob for mi.. but guess what.. this swift cut into my inner lane and did a >120km/hr
take over at the bend..

i felt like shit!!! really.. shit..

i became too complacent of my car..
i neglected all the aspects of racing except power..
i was disappointed.
i nearly wanted to sell my honda and get a swift.. haha kidding..

but seriously..

that taught mi a lesson.. power is not everything. guts and skill is.
well.. as usual.. apples need not be red to be apples..

So next time see me driving pls let mi win.. pls.. or i ll be sad.

haha no time liao la.. byebye guys..

to be continued....

Helo everyone.. its monday morning.. and its like i ve recovered from some "sleepless zombies continuous hardcore never sleep syndrome".

Ok.. last friday was book out day.. didnt rest.. but played majong till 6am.. win like 7 bucks.. freak.

and straight after that met TS at bugis for KTV at 10am and i was like never slp.. <-- saturday

And after 7hrs of ktv cheryl called and say wanna watch harold & kumar.. so met up with her go supper go T2 coz she wanna see planes.. and its like shit.. she ended up eating some fishball noodles. Then in the end ended up watching Made of Honor.. quite a good movie la.. <--- sunday morning 2am show.

then after movie went breakfast till like 5am at Jurong (LYK hse there) then its raining like siao.. freaking freaking cold.. and got to share jacket in the car.. i was not even driving.. too shag.

Then after rain stop.. its already 6am got to send cheryl hm then our eljin home then finally drive hm myself.. when i reach my door.. i was so touched.. i nearly teared.. cause finally the war ended.. can slp lo..

but guess what.. like 3-4hrs later my fone rang.. and ard somebody says she freaking hungry.. and i was like freaking sleepgry.. but still met up and went sakae.. then shop.. then drive ard.. u guys know i always dun noe my way ard.. and when i say drive ard.. its really drive ard.. pass by little india.. and ya.. no need to say.. its chaotic.. ppl cross the road like how elephants do.. and i shall not mention the race here la.. i very racial harmony one..

And then.. went hm.. ard 1015pm received a call.. gotta run again.. this morning she let mi waited a freaking good 30mins in the car.. and nvm.. so i let her wait for mi for 30mins exactly too... reached.. got a pink dolphin.. and went somewhere.. talk.. then went jalan kayu for prata.. then send her hm.. i reached hm at like 130am?

so this is the how the war ended.. i totally KOed after that la.. and now its monday afternoon.. feels great.. never been better.. and thats my weekend for u.. kaoz.. duno its good or bad la.. just tired.

wanted to blog a lot.. but really too tired.. 530am and just back.. tmr must still wake up 9am to go out.. kaoz.. why did i get myself into such shit.. anyway.. haha.. life is good when u re busy.

Alright .. i am late for bk in.. and miss cheryl demanded i add her link.. so.. ya under my friends is her blog link.. nice blog.. so do visit.. ya.. stay tune for my posts..

to be continued....................

A movie to comment on.

This video, directed and produced by our own TP MOI students i believe,
can definitely 'speak' to some of us out here. Although myself never was
a VSC student, I study Interior Architecture & Design btw, really feel
like sharing this video to you guys.. This video is taken from Sotong's
blog (pardon me for calling u that. haaa.. ok.. alright.. the name is cheryl)
btw cheryl is that girl in that video.

The film named Reverie
(before playing kindly turn off my blog music.)



Alright.. first time watching the video.. u might not feel anything special.
Just another of the many 'filmed to impress' films. U know school work.. just
impress with side-dishes.. u win. But is this film really contains no value of
fine appreciation?

Firstly.. lets get to understand the film. Reverie.. i believe quite a handful
of people do not really understand the meaning of the word. If u cant even appreciate
the Title of the film, how do u start to understand the film?

(to all my platoon mates.. this doesnt mean our morning fall-in timing.) haha

Reverie in simple and layman terms, it means daydream.

Lets start from daydream to help understand Reverie.

When people say daydream.. people meant 'building castles in the air'
things or situations that will never come to fruition.

Reverie doenst mean dreaming..
You are having insights while asleep when u dream.
But when u re fully awake and u dream.. u fantasize.. u meditate.. its call reverie.

And reverie oftenly come hand in hand with music..
simplified it.. we ve got Music Meditation.

I believe almost everyone will go into Reverie once in a while.. when u turn
on the music.. ur mind just follow the tune.. u hardly hear the lyrics.. just
the melody.. and it brings u somewhere 'ideal' u did/didnt purposely intent.

I believe everyone was leading a life far from 'perfect expectation'.

The ideal life?
The ideal family?
The ideal career?
The ideal partner?
The ideal financial status?

or power? perhaps popularity?

every single father mother's son fall short of their reverie.

Reverie can also means the past.. history.. something good that happened.

maybe yr stress free secondary sch life?
maybe yr lively childhood?
or even maybe yr past relationship with someone.

William Styron once quote
"I felt caught up in a reverie of years long past"

And let me bring u back to the reality now!
YES stop dreaming and bring yr mind back nw!!!
where are you 'now'?

in yr room?
staring at the screen?
got tons of F*** shit waiting for u?
got problems so great that will fall berlin's wall?
no life?
no friends?
no love?

yes yes.. this is the now.. the real world. the real u.

How is this film important to us?

ok lets not focus on the pretty girl in the film.. opps.. cheryl haa..

but lets look at how the director direct the film..

its a film of clear cut 'constrastion', is there such a word? haha
ok, contrasting.. there s a 'now' life and a dreamy vision.

the now life shows dawn aka cheryl working hard to fulfill what the
world expect of her.. work.. study.. progress.

look at the trophies on the cabinet.. are those her ideal achievements?
are the trophies for her? or for her 'family pride fulfilment'?

She is alone. are u alone? despite the things, the people, the tasks
that u ve been busying with/for.. are u still alone?
cuz nothing belongs to u in yr life yet.. nothings belongs to yr Reverie.

The mind constantly portray and brings u back to the ideal life.

like in the video.. the piano keys start dancing.. the mind drift and
in a instant.. a fantasy, a awake meditation of reverie came.

A life of fun.. pure fun.. bright fun.. and a life totally constrasted
to yr 'now' life.

Like what i just said.. Reverie are hard to realised.. infact not achievable..
thats y people call it daydream.

Upon saying that.. the importance of the film shot up like fireworks.

This film captured something unachievable.. this film portrayed the
fantasy of man, the idealistic life of man in a sad yet logical way.

And after hearing all that.. u may say.. so what?

Thus now i post my questions to you.

Do u have a life not yours?
Do u live alone in yr life?
Do u wan to realised yr fantasy?

If so.. can u stop living for the world?
the world teaches us to work for fame.. reputation.. money
and it requires u to do something u dont like.. and forsakes
yr dream.. will u still do it?

My answer to you is in the film.

The last few moments of the film.. A window of reverie..
the ideal life is only outside that window.. can u get out?

y is it a window and not a door? becoz u can only look and see..
u cant get out.

if u cant get out then whats the purpose to have reveries?

just like windows in yr hse.. it helps u to breathe.. it helps u to
relax.. u are confined.. u are trapped.. but a little opening will
help to move u on.. a little moment of self-pleasure.. a little
dream to make u survive in the room that saps yr breath away.

The importance of the film.. it helps and teaches ppl to dream.

Once someone told me.. When u can dream it.. you can have it.. true?

the verdict of the film is all up to u now.. after hearing what i said.

whether is it a good film or not.. yr verdict.



But now after understanding whats reverie.. i invite u to look at the
video again.. is it that meaningless now?

And guys.. lastly what i encourage u to do is to switch on music that
touches you.. lie down but dont sleep! close yr eyes and let the music
lead yr mind to your reverie.

Eventhough it might be unachievable in yr life..
but u can have what u wan in 5 mins of reverie.

RElax a bit.. breathe a bit.. and life will seems a lot better.

Apples are green... remember. thanks for reading. cheers.

National Service

I believe everyone has a say in this.. Common sayings will be.. NS sucks.. NS F***ed up my life..
NS took everything.. NS is useless.. NS waste time.. etc.. haa.. My platoon mates will shout Amen!

But come to think of it.. is NS really redundant? Is NS spoiling every mother father's son's life?

I pondered for the past 17months.. and i think i somehow got the answer.

I still remember my enlistment day.. the day i was crowned the Chao recruit.. the lowest life form in this world.. some call it. haa..

Then i realised i was a 5 no person..

no money..
no time..
no freedom..
no life..
and lastly.. no hair..

i guess every f*** father mother's son felt the same as me..

for 3 months.. i am labelled chso recruit.. superior shout at u like no father's business. We do exercise like no mother's businesses.. its hard.. really hard to adapt..

Took a boy.. and attempt to change him into a man.. and in the process.. deprived him of his family.. girls.. and freedom.. how can u expect a healthy growth? (platoon mates will say.. Amen.)

I saw with my own very eyes.. buddies broke down.. they cried.. they stoned.. they gave up on life.. when their gf left them.. when they struggled to be happy.. ya u need to struggle to be happy in the Army.

DAys pass really fast.. and Passing Out Parade is what everybody is waiting for.. the day that their fate change.. the day they anticipated.. coz after POP most ppl will be posted out to the units with more flexiblity and freedom..

Some of my friends ended up being MP.. Military Police.. 8-5 job.. check on others.. confiscate contraband stuffs.. sounds easy huh?

Some of my friends became RP.. Regimental Police.. also 8-5 job.. just stay in the guard room.. and check bags and guard the camp..

Some of my friends went to became Signallers.. stuffs gotta do with handling signal stuff.. communication stuff la..

And a batch of us were send to what we call living hell.. 3SIR.. the 3rd Singapore Infantry Regiment.. when i first got my posting.. the word Infantry echoed through my head for eternal...

Infantry means what? Infantry means... rifleman.. Just like all the war movies.. Those who fight with a rifle.. those who say yes sir! those who dive away from grenades.. those who see their friends die.. those who walk forever.. those who put their lives on the altar the moment war starts.. all of the above still alright.. the worst is what? i gotta stay in camp!!! only got less than 48hrs per week for personal things!!!

Oh God save me..

Life in 3SIR in not simple.. We do PT more then BMT.. We walked 32km for CSB.. We run SOC more than 30times.. some soldiers never do SOC before.. We were pushed to the limits.. Y? Cause we are Infantry.. Those with green berets.. We learnt how to fire.. not only fire.. but fire sharply.. we learn advance weapons.. we learn to survive.. we learn to kill.. we learn to fight for our country.

I am in mortar platoon in 3SIR.. firing a mortar? 'never ever cross my mind before'
I still remember the first bomb of my life.. earplugs on.. readings checked.. commanders waved the board.. the bomb shoot out.. a loud blast.. the ground shooked.. that is what me and my platoon mates go through for the rest of our days in army..

Many soldiers decided to give up.. came up with some medical reasons.. get a specialist to endorse.. and stayed away from training..

Sometimes.. giving up came to my mind.. 'why do u still hold on?'
Why work so hard? its just 2 years.. then life will be normal again.. not say u re gonna
fight like a soldier when u work outside?.. thoughts like these came to mind..

But somehow.. i know i cant.. y? cuz Mortar is a teamwork thing.. every single mother father's son is important and they play unique roles.. not say i love to do army stuffs.. but i dont give up on my friends.. maybe giving up on yrself is the same as giving up on yr friends.. those who will fight beside you in times of war.. haa.. funny.

Till now.. i am still working hard.. maintaining a balance.. work hard.. play hard.. and tell myself.. another 7 more months.. all will be over.. and I will complete what i start off 2 years ago..

NS do not teach u anything... NS only makes u realises things...

NS makes me realised how time with family is so precious.

NS makes me see the true people who will stay with you throughout.

NS makes realised that War movies are really based on true story.

NS makes me realised my own limits physically and mentally.

NS makes me realised how to live properly..

SO.. does NS really does so much negative things like how so many ppl commented?

If an Infantry rifleman can realised this.. y cant the rest see it more positively..

Look at things from different angles.. and life will be better.. like my quote..

Apples dont have to be Red to be Apples.. stevendetta

And i know what my platoon mates will say.. 'AMEN!'

Hmm.. actually today I ve been thinking of what
'a long time friend' told me ytd..
people always get into situation when they need
to make a decision but no matter what they decide
to do... somebody will get hurt, whether is it yrself
or somebody else. So today I decided to post what i
really think about this.


So I guess its really gonna be a long post..

Matters of the heart are still unsolved till this day.

Why do ppl behave the way they do?

Why can ppl be so selfish?

Why can love be gone in a wink of an eye, when things seems right?

Why can ppl hurt those they love most?

Why can the heart betray itself?



I guess these questions set many of u to thinking.
Past events.. sad memories and maybe even now u feel
a pain somewhere there.

I have many friends whose past are so heart-wrenching,
thus they are still stuck there, unable to move on,
unable to forget, unable to smile 'PROPERLY'.
Thats how sad it is.


For me.. till this day i still believe in one very
simple fact. 'people are people'.


If you wanna get yrself into situations which
involves the heart, then prepare to follow the
rules of the game. The heart game.



Rule no 1. - Expect him/her to be selfish.
The very first day when he/she looks u in the eye and say
'I love you' already contains pieces of selfishness in the heart.
Coz that 'i love you' will bind the both of u tgt. he/she wans
to own u and vice versa. Things that start with selfishness
oftenly ends in selfishness. So to put it simple.. Love = selfishness.


Rule no 2. - Expect better choices for you/her/he.
Like ppl always say, nobody is perfect. And that
is f***ing true. In this game, better choices will
appear from time to time. Y? coz u are not perfect.
There are ppl out there who score better then you in
one area of another. many will say love is about accepting
one's imperfection and love him/her as he/she is.

How long can someone fetch water from the well when tap water is available?


Rule no. 3 - Expect an never ending cycle.

Y issit a cycle? what cycle? this cycle
---> courtship>>honeymoon>>cooltime>>evaluation>>decision

which part of the cycle do u fall in?



1. courtship is always sweet and 'misleading'..
yes i use the word misleading. how many of you really
know each other before ending that cycle?



2. honeymoon is always fun.. try new things tgt.
integrating each other into each other's lives. U begin
to accept each other's weaknesses and build an 'foundation'.



3. cooltime is the time when both of u rely on the foundation
built to move on. Both of you have fond memories tgt. things
start to get mandane.. routinized.. or simply boring. But your
fond memories tgt can bring u far.. 2 years? 3 years? or till
marriage? till death?



4. evaluation is where most relationships cock up. Ppl start
to compare and evaluate their partner to ppl out there. And
rule no 2 will show up. Better choices are always available.
Ppl start to 'forget'. forget the promises, the memories,
the courship, the honeymoon, the foundation. and thus, leading
to no.5 decision.



5. deciding what to do. its either u hurt the other or hurt
yourself. as i said, ppl are selfish. most of them out there
will protect themselves rather to honor that 'i love you' said
few years ago. normally at this time when in a stage of deciding..
another stage of courtship have already began.. so this is why ppl
can forget so quickly and can harden up so firmly.


I believe this post can address to 4 types of ppl..

For ppl just about to start the game.. play at your own risk..
it definitely cost more then just tokens..it cost yr heart..

For ppl who are guilty of judging and evaluating yr partner..
u can never get out of the cycle.. but u can reverse it or restart it..
say 'I LOVE U" the same exact way and mean the same exact thing to him/her.
Do smthing today..

For ppl who already had decided to start a new cycle with someone else
when u re already in one.. noone can say u re wrong.. coz u are just 'people'
people are selfish like i mentioned.. so keep trying and being selfish till
the day u realised how to win the game together and not alone. just note that
everytime u start a new cycle.. u left the one u loved behind in the cycle
ALONE!

Lastly.. for ppl who are stuck in the cycle..
HELO!!!! do u hear me!!!! get out now.. stop staring at the game over
screen and insert some coins already!! either stop playing this game..
or start a new cycle.. stop staying at the foundation, memories and promises..
coz u are in the cycle alone!

Hope this does shed some light on some ppl who need it.. to those who thinks this is crap..
pls do not flame me.. COZ.. THIS IS MY BLOG!!!! haa.. personal thing k.. may those who
read....

understand the rules
master the cycles
win the game (either alone or together)

Good day to all mother father's son... cheers.

I wanna share something with everyone out there..



OMG!!! HAHAHA! look at this brainless sign... Glass is very fatigue.. I was like.. wth.. ya the glass is standing there since day one.. its is very fatigue.. this is what i told LYK.. haha.. ya if you know.. we are at Topone KTV..



Ok thats me and Jesper.. y jesper always like to take photos with such angle.. cant see shit anyway.. mhaha..



Ok this is Jay Zhou i supposed.. er.. haha.. ok like shit.. its me.. forget it..
ya another 7hrs of singing.. i even fell asleep.. just too long.

Topone KTV.. reasonable price, good environment.. new songs.. only some minor cons like very fatigue glass doors. haha.. enjoy ppl!

Today met up with Low YK and Chia TS for some window shopping and get together.. Haa.. already see them from monday to friday, weekends also must see.. guess we re really good buddies.. mhahaha.. btw..

today bought a cap, ya.. they ask y must i get a cap, u now how annoying it is to do up the hair everytime when u need to go out? just wear the cap and off u go! Well dun wish to admit it.. but ya.. I m lazy.. plain lazy.


Sotong says i look like ah beng.. how can it be!!! no!!!

After some super boring shopping.. we re not girls.. we cant find joy in walking round and round and stepping the same tiles all over again for the like 36th times..
We went BreWerks.. long time since i ve been here..

Had some TCSS session.. drink.. laugh.. eat.. haa.. very free thursday huh..

Well.. i found out that i cant take too much beer.. haha.. so YK drive for me to the next destination.. alright.. the next stop is sheesha at Arab st. Our old gathering place..


OMG.. look at our LYK.. What the hell.



Our beloved TZO and LYK and my phone.. haha.. lame.

Haa.. in the end.. we end up eating Bak Kut Teh.. and its awesome.. really.
tired day.. went home..

haa and guess what.. Cheryl also plays Cabal.. wth.. donated 500 000alz to her for a good start.. jia you..

and i guess.. its a good day.. cheers.


alright another half a year before ord.

When life gets this green.. it doesnt matter anymore.